Anxiety for being behind in the course material
What triggered it? I needed to catch up on this CEB homework but doing this trigger work has really triggered something in me and created something of a block
How did I feel? Anxious, quite anxious that I didn’t know how to do this properly, that I wasn’t doing it well enough. My eyes are just beginning to open to the potential of this course and as is the case when I get excited or feel something is quite important, I load up the experience with pressure as if my life depends on it, and I feel paralysed, perfectionist who can’t do anything if I can’t do it perfectly and understand it all before I’ve dived into the practice and learned it.
How did I behave? I listened over and over again for a week to the recording of “awareness of the present.” It helped and I remained motivated but … I also procrastinated. I sat down to do the work, only to engage with a prompt that I needed to clear out my files to free storage space on my computer in order to keep applications running at a good speed.
What was the result? I’m doing this homework in rushed, last minute fashion. But I’m also realizing there was nothing to be anxious about. I don’t need to know it ALL now. Just keep doing the work every day and understanding will come.
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Hi Monica, thank you for sharing.
We just had a really powerful session where we worked with and began healing this emotion. Would you like to share here how it went and what you learned with others? 🙂
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